Ok, fan club..don't get so testy. I read all your comments on "where'd I go"??? Well, facebook, trip to Utah, work, and men are taking up my time. That's it. Oh, and trying to get a divorce... that takes time too. So, about my Utah trip. It was very nice and "tender"... Temple square was beautiful with all the lights. It made me think while I was out there. I seem to continually screw my life up. Well, I'm well intended..I just jump to things fast, like I'm running out of time. Ker- you know my entire history. Why do I leap into the fire again so fast?? Not so sure. Maybe it's remnants of what I didn't have as a child... So can I blame it on that?? Ok, not really. I have moved on. I don't have all the answers. Well, I don't bite my nails anymore. I've lost weight. I just might get to that teen weight soon. Positives in my life. Logan is still the most high maintenance kid alive. Apparently, the Lord knows I like a challenge. Jan, I still remember the tumor comment..it makes me laugh!! Lucy and Logan...they are challenges, aren't they? They need to meet when they are older.
So, this is just rambling. What am I really saying? Well, I've started to date...and it's not an easy process. Kids, jobs, divorce that is happening slowly. I just feel SO ready for happiness. I'm happier in many ways, and in others more stressed. I know i'm supposed to take time to "know myself." What is the consensus? I just don't know how I made it that long in a miserable marriage and I'm angry with myself.
Ok, you asked for it..so there are my thoughts of tonight.
maybe soon, my thoughts will make more sense..but you asked for it.

Little moments....

So I have to write this fast because it's late and I have to get up for work, but I'm feeling like journaling some sweet moments. So, you all know that Logan is my, let's say most challenging child, well I have to share some precious moments with you. He is just the cutest thing, and he can be wonderful and terrible. So, let's share some sweet wonderful moments..
Today we drive through the McDonalds drive through (which by the way, I had a grilled wrap and NO fries- willpower sucks)..so anyway, I asked him what he wanted. His answer: "UUUUUMMM..mom I want a cookie..no, no, wait 3 cookies (held up his 3 fingers), and a jellybean, and a cinnamon roll" How cute is he?
He was, in fact a very good boy today.
Last week, we were driving to church, and he kept looking at the trees..he said very matter of factly "mom, where did all the green trees go?" I tried my best to explain fall. He said "no, that's not it"
Ok, I have to head to bed now.
Love you, my readers!

Is it all going to hell?

Well, what a sad day...Nobama made it in. I guess we might as all (feel that NC 'twang?) just dig the grave. There is still prayer Jan..... Still prayer. So now what? I just don't know. I talked to one of my patients last night about this, well, terrible thing, and he wanted to vote for McCain..but he lay there very sick. Why can't the polls be taken around to the people in the hospital? Anyone ever thought of that? How sad he was that he didn't get to vote. I told Him "We needed your vote", He looked at me with his kind eyes and said "Dori, don't I know it"
Dig, dig.........................dig, dig:)


dig.....................dig

Did you know that Hitler and Satan surely had/have lots of charisma too? Hmmm.something our President has in common with these two?

Heading to the polls!!

Is is going to be a good day or a bad one?
Depends on which way the polls go! Go REPUBLICANS!
Gotta love those republicans... lets make it happen.
NOBAMA
:O
By the way..no comments allowed unless you agree with me..hehe

Thinking of Utah..and church

Can't sleep..this dysfunctional sleep schedule of mine. So while I was reading the ensign at the gym..came across a good reminder.
In an article "Let him do it with simplicity"

"One of the challenges of this mortal experience is not to allow the stresses and strains of life to get the better of us- to endure the varied seasons of life while remaining positive, even optimistic. Perhaps when challenges strike, we should have these hopeful words etched in our minds "The best is yet to be"
We can't predict all the struggles and storms in life, not even the ones around the next corner, but as persons of faith and hope, we know beyond the shadow of any doubt that the gospel of Jesus Christ is true and the best is yet to come."

Did I mention I would love to go to Utah, and see the Salt Lake temple? I sure would.

A new Month!!!

Sitting here with my big boy...Logan is a big 3 and ever so independent. Favorite words.."I do it!" Challenging as ever. So, my last post a bit depressing. Let's change that.. I am doing well. I have good days, and bad ones. Today is in the middle. Not sad I'm separated..just sad things aren't the way I'd like for them to be. I know many of you have expressed your concern. How grateful I am to have you as my friends. I've been very blessed in life. Not sure why I'm so blessed to have the friendships I do ..but you are all the greatest. You must like me for some crazy reason:)
My heart is full. Jan- thanks for remembering my favorite time of year..that brought tears to my eyes. I do miss Bristol Mountain- all of you still New Yorkers!! I think I'd have an anxiety issue if I went on that ski lift again! It was so high it was insane! But the beauty way up there- breathtaking. I am keeping busy here. Working.. nursing, selling jewelry, and lots of thinking. Had a good night on Halloween. Britt dressed in a sexy nurse costume. Just love seeing her 16 and looking 21 :( Syd spent the night walking around with her steady Shae (who is 16). Where did I lose my 2 little girls? I feel so old. I'm remembering though that I'm still young. Ready for new opportunities in life. Don't know what they will be..but I have the gospel, good friends and a great family. Anything is possible.
There, that's a little more positive.