The Real Me...by Jessie Clark Funk

My thoughts for the day.................... and what I think of my life
A song..."The Real me" by Jessie Clark Funk

Foolish heart, looks like we're here again..
same old game of plastic smile, don't let anybody in
hiding my heartache..will this glass house break? (it's breaking)
how much will they take before I'm empty?
Do I let it show? Does anybody know?

But You see, the real me... hiding in my skin..
broken from within..
unveil me.. completely..
I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask... my frailty
'cause You see~ the real me.

Painted on, life is behind a mask..self inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of this song and dance.. (so true)
living a charade, always on parade.. (yes)
what a mess I've made of my existence... But You love me even now
and still I see somehow, that You see, the real me
hiding in my skin... broken from within..
Unveil me...completely...
I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask my frailty
'cause You see the real me

Wonderful, beautiful... is what You see, when You look at me..
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into a perfect tapestry.
I just want to be me
I want to be me.......

And You love me... just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful.....is what You see, when You look at me.

the 411...

Wow, it's been over 2 weeks since I last blogged. My life has been taken over by lia sophia, among many other responsiblities:) I need to go to bed soon, I have rice cooking at 11 pm. I haven't really eaten all day, and I'm hungry. I feel like the dalmation on 101 dalmations that keeps staring at the TV saying.."I'm hungry, mama, I'm hungry". Yep...so... what a random thought.
It was the kids first day back to school and we have been busy.
So, to talk about me again...hehe...especially to those of you blog addicted fans..here's the 411 on my life lately..
lia sophia...I had my first show on Sat and it went very well. Despite my extreme nervousness, everyone said I looked cool, calm and collected. I had 2 great cheerleaders there to root for me...thank you my lia sophia sisters!!! I really feel like I'm in a new "club" that's really cool. After the show we sat in Wendy's parking lot, eating our fries until 2 am talking about our dreams of succeeding. It was so very cool, and soothing to my spirit. Girl power is really something. If you ever read this Tammy or Brianna- thank you for being there... I know I keep saying this, but I am so inpired by what many of these women have made of themselves. I want to be part of it...everyday. I haven't felt such commraderie in a very long time.
My "fear" of failure reinforced that I need to keep reading self help books til the day I die. Latest one by the way.."Winning with people" by John Maxwell. I wish that I had more time to read. These books are great.
Well, the rice is still cooking...that darn rice a roni is taking too long. I keep shoving "fillers"into my mouth, while waiting.
Well, that's about all the energy I have to put into the blog tonight. I must eat my half cooked rice a roni and get to bed.
love to all peeps reading my boring blog:)

Long day even longer....at the hospital

Thought I'd take this brief moment of downtime to complain about what an eternal day this is. And it is. It's only 12:45, I have almost 7 more hours to go..... ughhhhhhhh
If only I played the lottery maybe I'd win and wouldn't have to work.

Today's events..

Unexciting. Spent 2 hours at the social security office applying to get a name change on Brittany's card so she can get her driving permit. I will have 2 drivers in the next year. That's quite scary. When did I get so old?
So, while sitting there I thought about how many microbes were piled into that hot, sweaty room filled with the best picks of people. I kept reminding myself that God loves everyone, including the girl that the security officer had to take out(not so quietly) I was hoping gunfire wouldn't break out. Luckily, we were saved. There is a sign posted on the wall about killing people in a federal office. Yep, scary places...
Went to the gym, found my new machine, the rower. It's fab.
Took my bathing suits back that didn't fit. Maybe next year after a little more use of the fab "rower" at the gym.
Went to Barnes and Nobles and got Logan a cool new book.
Tomorrow is Logan's B-day. I have Relief Society tomorrow night. We are learning how to SAVE money. I def. need to be there.

More pics of Tennessee

Amy, Aaron, Cameron, Erica, Andrew, Parker and Jenna

Cool quotes- stolen version

So, I'm stealing these quotes from a friend, but since she so felt inclined to direct them at me (right back at ya, sister!), I thought I'd share..

~Well, we're all a little weird and when we find those people whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them, and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness and call them our best friend.... ;-)

~Friends in your life are like pillars on your porch; sometimes they hold you up; sometimes they lean on you; and sometimes it's just enough to know they are standing by... ;-)

~The buddy system is essential to your survival; it gives the enemy somebody else to shoot at.

~Friends keep you from being a psychopath.

~Best Friends share the same retardation.

~Never explain yourself - your friends don't need it and your enemies won't believe it

~I'm on a mission to save the world (I can't believe they trusted me with this). (huh - and no one told me either until now!)

~The sad thing about a lie is knowing you're not good enough for the truth

~Don't tell me that the sky is the limit, when there are footprints on the moon.

The perception of a 3 year old

Logan will be 3 on Tuesday. We were pulling out of the driveway this eve when Logan exclaimed very excitedly, "Look mom, a diamond in the sky, a biiiiiiiiiigggg diamond" - in his precious little voice
.....he was pointing to the streetlight.